This was something I wrote last year when I traveled to South Africa, Cape Town, and fell in love with a beautiful boy. After my second trip to Cape Town, I wrote this for his birthday. He recently passed away over New Years 2020, as did another friend of mine 3 days prior. I also just received news that a family member is probably nearing the end of her life. Life is testing me, and all of us right now. To go from never experiencing death, to losing 3 in a month, is taking a toll on my otherwise steadfast demeanor. Hold your loved ones close, and tell them you love them at every opportunity.
To Hofni:
You should know, I lied when I told you I was nervous.
It’s hard to know for sure, but then maybe I’ve always known. The exact moment though, is more difficult to locate. It’s there, somewhere, between this time and some space, beyond.
Maybe it was the moment I first saw you, when the universe sent me a message.
It came in a flower, encrypted in fire
I smelled it with my mind, and began to search for something.
Maybe it was as the seconds turned to hours, when I couldn’t get enough.
I got lost in you, two lost boys dreaming an endless night. Ecstatic emotions drove right through me, pointy like fingernails gently running across my skin.
Maybe it was the fusion of our beings, when we melted and joined together.
A different plane of existence for every feeling I had, all at once, rushing in on me. They crushed me, but you were there.
Maybe it’s in every single one of your smiles, when the universe sent me a message.
It came in the fire, drifted between time, and only the safest of spaces, and beyond.
Happiest of birthdays Hofni 💙
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